Im feeling somewhat helpless. There is this woman im madly in love with. she is my first thought upon waking and the last voice i hear as i slip into sleep. I can spend all day talking to her and still miss her as i speak with her on the phone. When i have trouble breathing the thought of her makes me battle for every breathe. I spend most of my time talking about her or thinking of ways to make her smile.. to make her feel like the goddess she is to me. I feel helpless because no matter what i do.... she still always doubts.

 Yet there are days she questions my love for her. I dont have any qualms about proving my love for her  but it does make me sad. Not that she doubts me... that, i somewhat expect. it saddens me that she feels like I couldnt possibly love her.... almost like she doesnt believe love is possible. She tries to tell me shes neurotic, a handful, emotional, and a plethora of other negative self assessments meant to frighten me away. She asked me just a few minutes ago whether i was sure i wanted to love her. 

This is my answer....

Dandelion_Wings..... I LOVE YOU

This shall not and will not change... no matter how much you try to chase me away or convince me i cant love you, no matter how far you may be... or how hard things may be from time to time. For me, the chance to love you is well worth the risk. Here it is.. im putting it all out there for all to see. Im leaving myself open and exposed to prove...yet again, that i will not fail, i will not falter. The only way you will lose me is if the thread of my life gets cut before yours.